I haven’t blogged much lately.
Yes, I know, that’s a bit of stating the obvious.
It’s been a combination of a lot of things. The usual stuff: full time job, toddler, family, and so on.
But then there’s been other things, like crushing anxiety.
Yeah. I have that.
There’s a comfort in knowing that the weird things that your brain does don’t ONLY happen to you.
Weirdly, I have no problem talking about this weirdness with strangers. Or, relative strangers. Some of you have been following my blog for so long you don’t feel “strange”.
But I also have family and long time friends who see this. And I’m really not an open person.
So, yeah. I have anxiety. And some days it is background noise.
And other days it is an absolutely crushing weight that make me want to dissolve in a corner.
I’ve had more of the dissolving days lately than I care to admit.
And so, the quiet.
But, the quiet doesn’t help. So here I am.
I’m not going to pretend that I am suddenly going to be all open and share all the crazy that goes on in my head, but I may share a little.
Just like I am not going to share every detail of the dream I had the other night, where I met Raul Esparza, and he totally fell for me, and we got married and it was awesome because every day meant hearing that voice.
“Cause sometimes there is such a thing as oversharing.
But I will continue to share.
Maybe it will be about why I find Belle to be such a superior Disney “princess” over Ariel.
Or maybe it will be about my current bone broth obsession. (insert me singing Bone Thugs and Harmony tunes here –>)
Whatever it may be, I promise not to disappear.
As long as you don’t.